Definition "Commitment"
kəˈmɪtm(ə)nt/
noun
noun: commitment
1.
the state or quality of being dedicated to a cause, activity, etc.
"the company's commitment to quality"
| synonyms: | dedication, devotion, allegiance, loyalty, faithfulness, fidelity, bond, |
I've been learning lately, through a series of incidents that have occurred, that I have been lying to myself. I have been lying to myself when I tell myself that I am responsible, and that quite consciously. The reason of why I've done that is because I want to be responsible, sort of a "Fake it until you make it" -action; Trying to manifest it (which I take no shame in because at the end of the day I am learning). And through telling myself that, I have realized that I am subconsciously accomplishing something I have been trying to accomplish for the past few years; STOP feeling sorry for myself. It might sound like not a big deal, but for someone who spent a big part of her childhood in that comfortable place of enjoying misery because I didn't have to be responsible (it was the easy way out), it is a big deal. Learning to not feel sorry for myself (which I still have to remind myself of) is the first step towards being responsible, because you acknowledge that nobody except yourself put you in this situation, and nobody except yourself will get you out of it. So get busy. Don't think about the problem, think about the solution. Something I have learned through this heavy pattern that I adopted in the past is that I AM the first victim of my thoughts, words and actions. I AM the first victim of putting my head in the sand, taking the easy way out, not dealing with things and feeling sorry for myself about it. It leads nowhere. And that's not where I want to go.
I have been working on myself lately, working on this habit pattern and some others, and a few days ago I made a decision of committing to myself. Oscar Wilde once said "To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance", and so I made a decision. I made the decision of loving myself. I made a decision of committing to myself. I made a decision of never ever lose the connection to my inner self again. And I thought, very seriously indeed, that I wanted to marry myself. No joke. Think about it, who will you ever find that is more suitable for you than yourself? It's the person that knows you the best. If you learn how to forgive this person, and how to encourage this person, and how to think and talk well about this person, it will pay off a hundred times over and over again. You don't need anybody else in the world than this person (although that doesn't stop the fact that happiness and love is very very sweet when shared with others - indeed!).
So I encourage you, to make this commitment to yourself.
But you have to mean it!
So if you mean it, repeat after me:
I, ____, take you, ____, to be my husband/wife, to commit to. To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, I will love you and honour you all the days of my life until death do us part.
:)
Congratulations.
